Every day is a battle. I’m constantly fighting away, only thing that keeps me somewhat sane is when I pray. What’s going on in my mind isn’t worth the time to say its not like anyone truly understands what your dealing with anyway. I’m angry, I’m sad, I’m hurt, and I’m lost. I don’t know how to control my emotions and my thoughts. I’m a ticking bomb with all this rage inside. Luckily my faith is keeping me alive. The hope I hold onto that these battles will disappear. I’m constantly praying for strength that I need before I give up this year. Giving up is not one of my options but when I can feel the pain get stronger that surrounds within. It comes an option will quick than. I’m trying so hard to fight this away until the point I become exhausted and can’t get out of bed to start my day. Constantly crying because how unhappy I am with myself. This is not who I am or who I want to be. If I had one wish. I would wish these over thinking thoughts and fears would leave me. You see me as a whole but really I’m a broken soul. What I show on the out is not how I feel on the in. Hopefully that will change one day.