Your Enough

Always remember you are good enough in someone’s eyes. Never feel bad about being the person your meant to be. If they can’t accept your flaws and understand the person you are, you don’t need them. Never rest until your better is your best.

I do the best I can
To make you the happiest man
I go above and beyond
Most women can’t say that during their whole lifespan
I know I’m good enough
If you can’t see that
Than that’s rough
Because you’ll never find someone who cares and would do as much as me
That’s not a bluff
I might sound conceited
But that’s not it all
I’ve been mistreated
And lost my self confidence when he cheated
I know who I am
I know what I do
I have millions of flaws
And over thinking can be an issue
But I’m learning I’m enough
By the thoughtful things I do
Because I go above and beyond
To be the best person I can with you
If you want to throw that away
Than that’s good for you
At least I can walk away
And say I gave it my all
Did you?

“Inside Storm”

Inside is a raging storm
Anger, hurt, sadness
Taking over me
I want to give up
I want to run away
Or else the damn is going to collapse and all these emotions are going to break away
Barely make it through the day
Want be able to control what I say.
Exploding like a grenade
Tears running down my face
washing the smile away
No one understands the person I am
These feelings inside don’t just go away
I try to explain
I try to speak what I feel when I feel
To slowly kill the storm
But I just get pushed away
By the triggers being pressed
That’s keeping me scared to stay
I’m recognizing how I truly feel
Trying to heal
Needing someone by my side to understand this is real
These feelings don’t just go away
It being fixed overnight is insane
Explaining my feelings
Is me letting it out
Instead of keeping it in when really I want to shout.
I don’t expect comfort
I expect an understanding
Words that come out needs to be thought out before because sometimes that could hurt me even more
I’m just a fragile soul
That’s wanting to heal
Its not easy
But I know I’ll make it
I will not fail
I will prevail

“Trust Issues”

I’m scare to trust
I know I must
Its hard when I been left in the dust
Cheated on
And lied to so much
My past made me this way
Memories come to mind if my trigger was press some days
Those days are the toughest for me
Because those memories seem to stay
I want to trust
I really do
But it seems my fear takes over me
And makes me feel blue
Its not your fault for me not to trust
Its something that was there before you
I just think to much
I’m trying so hard to overcome these fears
I allowed myself to get out of my comfort zone this year.
When you think something is wrong its just me trying to control these feelings inside that I have stringing along.
I must say, I have came a long way
But its still not enough to keep me feeling sane.

“Exploring Soul”

My soul is free
Free as the spirit in me
But it needs to be exploring the beautiful sceneries
From waves crashing in the sea
To mountain’s high as it could be
Smelling the fresh air all around
Away from reality
enjoying the nature that surrounds
That’s when I’m at peace the most
Sand in my toes
Listening to the waves
Watching the sunset till it slowly fades away.
Is where I want to be today
Relaxing on shore
Away from the real world
My soul is calling for me to search the sea
For the missing pieces in me
Ill find myself once I escape reality
And enjoy the beautiful scenery

“I Try”

I try to be the best
I try to be enough
My imperfections take over
Its not something im proud of
I’m not the prettiest
I’m not the smartest
I’m the loyalists
Something that goes far
My hair is not always done
My skin is not unblemished
My outer appearance isn’t something you’ll see on social medias body image
But my soul is free
I don’t wear a mask
My heart is big
But shattered like broken glass
I try to be the best
The best in your eyes
I try so hard for you
You don’t even realize
But outside beauty can be found all around
Inside beauty is rare and worth being found.
That’s why I focus on the in
Instead of the out
Because my inner beauty is going to stay
While my outer beauty fades away.

“Look In The Mirror”

Look in the mirror and love what you see
Your beautiful as you can be
Don’t allow yourself to drown in the sea with all the negativity
Someone will always judge you for the imperfection of your beauty
Accept who you are, focus on who you want to be.
There is someone that will see you as a perfect angel, your true natural beauty that shines like nothing that’s ever been seen.
Until then look in the mirror
love what you see.
Never forget you are
your own kind of beauty.

“In Control”

My mind is not racing
I’m in control
today is a good day
I’m not going to let the voice take it away. Because I feel like the real me and I want that feeling to stay.
Its not easy, I can truly say
But I’m going to keep fighting that voice in my head because I’m getting stronger and more in control each day I push it away
I want give up on days I feel overwhelmed and dazed
Or even the days I’m lost and depressed
I’m thankful for the ones that believe and is staying by my side
Helping me overcome these thoughts that aren’t truly mine.
Without yall’s support I probably still be weak and crying myself to sleep.