“Smile”

Smiling doesn’t necessary mean you’re happy. Sometimes it just means you’re strong.

I will smile through the pain
Nothing will stop me from getting through the day
Accomplishing my goals
Making my dreams come true
That’s what keeps me smiling away
I know I can do it
Even on days I want to cry myself to sleep
I’m stronger than the scars that were left on my soul from past memories
Smiling is my key to getting through the day
Its something that helps me get through the pain
Making people laugh
Helping the ones in need
Is what heals my broken soul
And toxic memories
I hate that I have triggers
Its a challenge to overcome
But a challenge I will except to get rid of them
I am greatful for what I’m dealing with
For when I’m healed
I can help the ones broken inside
And smiling on the out
Hiding and denying
What’s really going on in their mind

“Rage”

She has fire in her soul
No one can take the flame away
She has fire in her eyes
She’ll burn your heart to ashes
Watching it disappear in clear day
Her heart turns cold when you disrespect the things she say
She’ll get even with no mercy at play
Don’t underestimate a kind heart
Inside there is rage needing to be release
When that day comes, I hope you pray
The horns will be holding the halo up
She will combined a mean angel and a kind devil, ready to blow things up
Creating night to day
The fire burning bright inside will never fade away
Its a part of her soul and its there to stay
Never underestimate a kind heart
The rage will appear one day
When that day comes, I hope you pray
She’s a saint with the lips of a sinner
An angel with a devilish kiss
Those things come within her
When her soul is both fire and ice
It could be a crisis
Fire in her eyes
Words cold as ice
You never know whats hiding inside
What lies in the dark
Could be a rage
That’s waiting for that day
Someone to underestimate the kind heart
And push her to explode away
That’s the day, I hope you pray to take the madness with the smile away

Your Enough

Always remember you are good enough in someone’s eyes. Never feel bad about being the person your meant to be. If they can’t accept your flaws and understand the person you are, you don’t need them. Never rest until your better is your best.

I do the best I can
To make you the happiest man
I go above and beyond
Most women can’t say that during their whole lifespan
I know I’m good enough
If you can’t see that
Than that’s rough
Because you’ll never find someone who cares and would do as much as me
That’s not a bluff
I might sound conceited
But that’s not it all
I’ve been mistreated
And lost my self confidence when he cheated
I know who I am
I know what I do
I have millions of flaws
And over thinking can be an issue
But I’m learning I’m enough
By the thoughtful things I do
Because I go above and beyond
To be the best person I can with you
If you want to throw that away
Than that’s good for you
At least I can walk away
And say I gave it my all
Did you?

“Inside Storm”

Inside is a raging storm
Anger, hurt, sadness
Taking over me
I want to give up
I want to run away
Or else the damn is going to collapse and all these emotions are going to break away
Barely make it through the day
Want be able to control what I say.
Exploding like a grenade
Tears running down my face
washing the smile away
No one understands the person I am
These feelings inside don’t just go away
I try to explain
I try to speak what I feel when I feel
To slowly kill the storm
But I just get pushed away
By the triggers being pressed
That’s keeping me scared to stay
I’m recognizing how I truly feel
Trying to heal
Needing someone by my side to understand this is real
These feelings don’t just go away
It being fixed overnight is insane
Explaining my feelings
Is me letting it out
Instead of keeping it in when really I want to shout.
I don’t expect comfort
I expect an understanding
Words that come out needs to be thought out before because sometimes that could hurt me even more
I’m just a fragile soul
That’s wanting to heal
Its not easy
But I know I’ll make it
I will not fail
I will prevail

“Trust Issues”

I’m scare to trust
I know I must
Its hard when I been left in the dust
Cheated on
And lied to so much
My past made me this way
Memories come to mind if my trigger was press some days
Those days are the toughest for me
Because those memories seem to stay
I want to trust
I really do
But it seems my fear takes over me
And makes me feel blue
Its not your fault for me not to trust
Its something that was there before you
I just think to much
I’m trying so hard to overcome these fears
I allowed myself to get out of my comfort zone this year.
When you think something is wrong its just me trying to control these feelings inside that I have stringing along.
I must say, I have came a long way
But its still not enough to keep me feeling sane.

“Exploring Soul”

My soul is free
Free as the spirit in me
But it needs to be exploring the beautiful sceneries
From waves crashing in the sea
To mountain’s high as it could be
Smelling the fresh air all around
Away from reality
enjoying the nature that surrounds
That’s when I’m at peace the most
Sand in my toes
Listening to the waves
Watching the sunset till it slowly fades away.
Is where I want to be today
Relaxing on shore
Away from the real world
My soul is calling for me to search the sea
For the missing pieces in me
Ill find myself once I escape reality
And enjoy the beautiful scenery

“I Try”

I try to be the best
I try to be enough
My imperfections take over
Its not something im proud of
I’m not the prettiest
I’m not the smartest
I’m the loyalists
Something that goes far
My hair is not always done
My skin is not unblemished
My outer appearance isn’t something you’ll see on social medias body image
But my soul is free
I don’t wear a mask
My heart is big
But shattered like broken glass
I try to be the best
The best in your eyes
I try so hard for you
You don’t even realize
But outside beauty can be found all around
Inside beauty is rare and worth being found.
That’s why I focus on the in
Instead of the out
Because my inner beauty is going to stay
While my outer beauty fades away.