“Trust Issues”

I’m scare to trust
I know I must
Its hard when I been left in the dust
Cheated on
And lied to so much
My past made me this way
Memories come to mind if my trigger was press some days
Those days are the toughest for me
Because those memories seem to stay
I want to trust
I really do
But it seems my fear takes over me
And makes me feel blue
Its not your fault for me not to trust
Its something that was there before you
I just think to much
I’m trying so hard to overcome these fears
I allowed myself to get out of my comfort zone this year.
When you think something is wrong its just me trying to control these feelings inside that I have stringing along.
I must say, I have came a long way
But its still not enough to keep me feeling sane.